day 13

I just recovered pretty much my inital roll on FTP. I now have 1022. I stayed up after my sick run until like 6AM. so, not all is lost. If it werent for those damn sngs i would still be up a decent bit. I'm pretty happy though, despite the beats ie(Kk vs AA 3 times one time very deep stacked) i got my second royal flush. Sadly, it wasn't as exciting as my first one. Nothing matched the exiliration and thrill of your first royal. Come to think of it, the first time of most things are best for the first time.

Your first kiss, first high, first time getting drunk, the first royal flush, and most importantly your first tourney win. The closest I have come to that is being second in chips in a party tourney when we chip chopped. i was extatic.

I remember my hands shaking as i made the biggest cash of my life. 2.5K. My roomate at the time was sweating me and he was just as excited as me. It was one of the most amazing feelings I have had in the world. For a few days i felt like i was walking on air. It was awesome.

On another positive note, I've hooked up with a few guys who play tourneys online and dicuss hands. Its great to have some friends to support me and mentor me as i grow as a poker player.

Maybe on the more negative side, i have turned into a virtual social recluse now. I really dont' have any friends here. Well, i shoudn't say that, i do have a few people i hang out with from time to time, but no extremely close friends. That has usually been the case with me. I like to build close friendships, and now it seems i spend more time with people online than i do with normal people. Its funny to think that at one point in my life i used to be a breakdancing club going person. Now I just sit at home. I think i need to be more social.......i'm gonna work on that. The problem is that i really don't like talking to people that don't have things in common with me.........grrrrrrrrrrr.